I wish life was as easy as wanting something so bad and you get it . no constant disappointments. working hard and then someone else receiving the prize that you earned. people like to say that life in unfair and you have to deal with it . but why do I have to deal with it ? why can’t I change what I don’t like. why can’t we change something we all don’t like.

sometimes at night I start to breathe heavy like im waking up from ah bad dream or just got back up from the bottom of a serene pool. constantly drowning in my thoughts without an escape. breathe, just breathe I tell my self. it seems nowadays i’m the only one that’s my lifeguard the problem is im also the one thats drowning. will anyone else ever come to save me xx

don’t you just ever take the time to enjoy life ? to look out the window & admire as other people’s lives walk right past you. walk in the rain and listen to the rain hit your umbrella or the soft squeak your shoes make when they contact the moist ground. it’s the small stuff that are overlooked that make life so beautiful xx

at the end of it all, at the end of this “thing” we call us , after we grow separate & flourish on our own, i’ll be okay.once I see your face again all the feelings come rushing back like the cascades of love I once had for you & my mind gets full  & hard to read like the queue on black friday. what im trying to say is stay, because after you go i’ll miss you too much